The minute of decay

Sometimes a minute feels like an eternity when anguish it's upon me...

Difficulty breathing... 

Head spin...

Darkness within my heart...

Moments of a scorched life...

...

ZT

P.S. "I feel the empty

I feel the minute of decay"

-

Marilyn Manson

Tell me where it hurts

Tired...

A long day has come to an end...

People around me

Trying to help

Trying to just let go

Trying to be

Trying to stay

Trying to... just try...

Don't know exactly where I'm going with this

But enjoying to just get words outof my head

Empting my head

Throwing dark stone coal out of my brain, 

of my being, 

of myself...

ZT

P.S. "What is my day going to look like?

What will my tomorrow bring me?

If I had x-ray eyes, I could see inside

I wouldn't have to predict the future"

-

Garbage

Try

"Oh oh

Ever wonder about what he's doing?

How it all turned to lies?

Sometimes I think that it's better to never ask why

Where there is desire

There is gonna be a flame

Where there is a flame

Someone's bound to get burned

But just because it burns

Doesn't mean you're gonna die

You've gotta get up and try, and try, and try

Gotta get up and try, and try, and try

You gotta get up and try, and try, and try

Eh, eh, eh

Funny how the heart can be deceiving

More than just a couple times

Why do we fall in love so easy?

Even when it's not right

Where there is desire

There is gonna be a flame

Where there is a flame

Someone's bound to get burned

But just because it burns

Doesn't mean you're gonna die

You've gotta get up and try, and try, and try

Gotta get up and try, and try, and try

You gotta get up and try, and try, and try

Ever worry that it might be ruined

And does it make you wanna cry?

When you're out there doing what you're doing

Are you just getting by?

Tell me are you just getting by, by, by?

Where there is desire

There is gonna be a flame

Where there is a flame

Someone's bound to get burned

But just because it burns

Doesn't mean you're gonna die

You've gotta get up and try, and try, and try

Gotta get up and try, and try, and try

You gotta get up and try, and try, and try

Gotta get up and try, and try, and try

Gotta get up and try, and try, and try

You gotta get up and try, and try, and try

Gotta get up and try, and try, and try

You gotta get up and try, and try, and try

Gotta get up and try, and try, and try"

-

P!nk

P.S. A song about the real life of a couple... Thank you P!nk

The speed of pain

It's funny how life flows, day after day, without you noticing it... But, sometimes, you stop and think about it...
How am I here?
What the hell happened anyway?
A need to cry and when you feel the tears coming out it's when the bell rings inside you...
Oh, I'm still alive, I'm still here, I can still feel...
That's the importance of some pain and happiness within you, well, I mean me...
The speed of pain flows throughout my insides and reaches the outside in my eyes...
I'm not saying each and every tear means pain, but it's when it strikes us, that's the moment you look inside and...
And sometimes you write, other times you listen to songs... But the importance of it all it's that you start to feel again, you become human, once more with feeling...
I know this are just words that came from thoughts brought by feelings... And I really love it...
Not feeling pain, but writing, believing again... Even if the believe I have just means that I just got tired of being numb... Numbed by the every fuckin' day life...
Sigh...
Don't need to understand this, just need to let it flow a bit more than usual!!!

ZT

P.S. "Just remember when you think you're free
The crack inside your fucking heart is me"
-
Marilyn Manson